Rain :(

Rain. Somedays I like the rain. Somedays I hate the rain. Today is a hate the rain day. I am sick of this rain crap it is depressing! I am ready for warm summer days with no rain and tractors in the field. I might not be able to be the one in the tractor but I can at least watch the tractors go up and down the road. Or back and forth through the field in fron or behind the house. I am starting to get the hang of this sit do nothing thing. At least not be so depressed about it. Watching Farm boy in the field from the house I can still call him on the radio and tell him that he is doing it wrong. He never should have put a base station in the house and a radio in my truck. Don't get me wrong I love that instead of wasting 20 seconds digging out his phone then another 3 min calling mine becasue I have lost it again. He can now just hollar on the radio I am done in this field moving to this one. Or I am going to town you need anything? On my end I can now watch him work and depending on my mood I can get on the radio and hollar at him that he is doing it wrong. Or Food is ready. Oh wait we were talking about rain not my new radios. Back to Rain. It sucks. In the summer its not so bad becasue a nice shower when it is real hot out can be cooling. But right now its just plain cold. The wind is blowing hard and the ground is really saturated. So in conclusoin NO MORE RAIN!!!! I think I ended on the same subject I started?

Hey Hoosier!!!

This phrase is one of the most used phrases in our house. Usually this phrase is called out by Farm boy or myself. If Farm Boy is the one saying it then either Shelby or myself are the recpient. Yes I myself need to be told every once in a while. I guess I should tell you what Hey Hoosier means.


Hey Hoosier: Your butt is hanging out pull up your pants!


Shelby cannot help being told Hey Hoosier! She has no butt so her pants just fall off. I have yet to find Jeans that will stay up on her that don't require modifaction.

I on the other hand just have gained a few extra pounds so mine just dont fit right I know it is no excuse but what can I say I love food.

So if you are ever around here and hear Hey Hoosier you might want to check to make sure it is not geared toward you :)

Salid

Is a salid still concidered healthy when you add Cheese, ham, crutons, and lots lots of ranch dressing? I am trying to eat a little more healthy. So I decided having salid. Well when I make a salid I have to have cheese meat crutons and lots and lots of dressing. Farm boy says I am defeting the prupose I need to stick to the veggies and a some of those salid spritzer things. But then I wouldn't be able to eat it. So I am eating my salid the way I want to because I am the only one in this house that will eat the Rabit food.

Choosing

I have written 3 post in the last 30 minets. I deleated all of them. I cant decided what I want to write. I started one on Joey. I started one on my Mother. I started one on why I am turning 24 again and not 25. Which leaves me to this one. Am I going to deleat it not sure. I wrote the last three and decided they were all stupid and I couldnt post that. Knowing that no one reads this. I still couldnt post it. I have a lot to say but I am not usre that I can type it clearly enough for anyone that happens to stumble on to this can undersatnd it.

My Poppy

In 11 hours and some minets my Poppy (grandfather) will have been in heaven for 9 months. I am writing about this now because I think I have healed enough to do so. Or maybe I need to write this so that I can heal more. Poppy's death was unexpectant then again it was not. He had been sick for sometime. I know I need to start with some background but the background in my family is very very confusing to me. 1 minute you have a happy slightly disfunctional family with Uncles Aunts cousins grandparets, then the next you are to speak to none of them! When you do start speaking to them you are no longer part of "there" family but a outsider wanting in. Poppy never made me feel like that he was the only one that I could go see and still feel the same love the unconditonial love that I had felt before. The day that I herd Poppy was sick I went to him I only left when the rest of the family did weather I was welcome there or not I was not leaving without a fight. Poppy made it threw that frist night and the next day a 9am I was the first one in his room sitting by his bed. talking to him telling him how much I loved him and he knew who I was look dead at me and said hun I dont want to eat yet. I told him that he didnt have to eat if he didnt want to that was fine. I told him I loved him while he was awake and he said I love you to breeann. those were the last words he spoke to anyone. Grandma came in and I held her hand (that is the closest grandma and I have been in 10 years for family issuse reassonsee hey I said disfuncial.) I stayed there all day at 3 in the after noon he took a bad turn and I called everyone and said get up here. a few hours later everyone was there but my dad. I was in bad enough shape as it was I needed my dad there He needed to be there for him. I moved a mountian that night dad showed up he was there. he was with the whole family when grandpa passed the way it should have been. I read something i wote for grandpa at the funral.

For my Grandpa

I know we are all feeling a little bit sad,
That we've lost our Grandpa, our friend and our dad
Together we have cried an ocean of tears
As we feel so empty and hold many fears

But Grandpa would want us to know he's in a good place
And that he watching us all with a smile on his face
As we have made him so proud, as proud as can be
That he has raised such a beautiful and special family

Thinking back now I really must say
I feel lucky and privileged to have known Grandpa to this day
For in my life, you have played a special part
The memories I will treasure and keep close to your heart

For me I am glad my little baby he got to meet
And for all of us, be grateful, his life is now complete
To each one of us he has loved and cared
And a family, be thankful for the good times we shared

Although he has gone we will always be together
And his spirit will live on each one of us forever
When you look to the sky, look for the brightest star
As that will be Grandpa looking down on us from afar

And now I would like to thank the good Lord above
For blessing us with our Grandpa with his kindness and love
Dear God, if it is not too much fuss
Take extra special care of our Grandpa as he is very dear to us

Grandpa if you are listening say a prayer for us every day
Be sure to protect us and guide us on our way
We know when God called you, you had to go
But we want you to know Grandpa we miss you and love you so

I miss my poppy and am having a ruff time with him being gone. I dont tell people this because its not who I am I am tuff. I am not a cryer I am not one to let things get in my way I am one to let things go but I cant help but cry myself to sleep a few night a week thinking about him and what he and uncle J and uncle B and little granda ma and papa Jack are doing I know he is fishing and WALKING with no cane and I cant wait to walk with him and he can match me step for step or go fishing and actually catch something not just lies. I miss you poppy. (still not feeling better it was worth a shot though)

Weather Reports

I think I am going to start doing Weather reports for the recliner. Sounds like a good plan to me. I have a great view of the front yard form the picture window and the chair. So why not start.
March 4Th 2010
Sunny a few clouds
No rain (right now)
nothing is flying past the window so I am going to say no wind either
It looks warm outside (looks can be deceiving)
Please take in the fact that I am in south central Illinois so everything could change in a Minute.

That is my weather report as of now like I said it could change.

My farm Boy

I met my farm boy when I was working at a John Deere dealer (gasp I know I know anyone that knows me knows that the green stuff is against my reglion). I am a Case IH girl through and through. It took my Farm Boy 6 months to get me to go on a date with him. Not that I didn't want to just that I wasn't sure of what I wanted at that point in time. When I finialy did say yes to that date, we went to Knotty Pine in Breese, it was nice and cozy. From there we went to Dutchmans and Pats. He took me back to my truck and I went home. The next night my Farm Boy ask me to come to his shop. So I did we talked and he noticed that my oil change in my truck was about 10,000 over due and that annoyed him to no end. So when I said oh I will get it changed tomorrow he told me that no were going to do it tonight and together. So off to walmart we went. We went out to eat at Pizza Hut and came back and changed my oil together. We have worked together ever scence. He has told me on more than one ocasion that he likes the fact that I will work beside him not behind him. He knows that I have grown up farming and loves that. He loves that he can call me from work and tell me to hook a a piece of equipment up to a tractor and go to work all without him having to watch and make sure I am doing it right. (before I broke my back now I just sit and do nothing) He knows that I am not affraid to ask him any questions becasue if he thinks I already know the answer he will tell me to think about the question and then answer it my self. If I still cant then he will explain it to me in my speak. I think and speak simple! I love my Farm boy. The day that Shelby first me him we were working at the John Deere dealer together and my dad had her she couldn't go to daycare because she was sick. Well Papa needed parts so he brought her in covered in choclate, dirt and some sticky supstance he put her up on the parts counter and ordered his parts. I took every baby wipe I had sent with him and tried to clean her up. In the process Farm boy cam up from the back and needed something. It was love at first site Shelby jumped off the counter and went to the back and wached Farm boy walk in to the shop. She cam back up front and waited the second she herd the door form the shop open she ran and jumped in to farm boys arms. He held her tight and carried her everywhere. I could see form that moment that this guy was the right one for us. He loved us both. Today Farm Boy is working construction telling me that I need to keep my head up that things will work out and my back will get better Shelby is just as much in love with him as the day she met him. She greats him everynight with a hug and kiss and I messed you. He kisses us goodbye everymorning with a I love you and be good for both of us. My farm boy never yells at me or Shelby just gives us a stern look every now and a again when we need it. I love my Farm boy and cant imagain a day with out him.