Tuesday, March 30, 2010


This is a list I found of the top 100 songs of 1997 I remember most of them they bring back so many good memories. I so had to go download all of these on my mp3 player I think I might have to get the little chip thing to go it to expand my memory. Holly crap I just fould the list form 1998 wow. listing that to. Hang on.

Semi-Charmed Life - Third Eye Blind
Song 2 - Blur
Everything to Everyone - Everclear
If You Could Only See - Tonic
Santeria - Sublime
Sell Out - Reel Big Fish
Breathe - Prodigy
The Impression I Get - Mighty Mighty Bosstones
Tubthumping - Chumbawamba
Fly -Sugar Ray
The Distance - Cake
Crash Into Me - Dave Matthews Band
Wrong Way -Sublime
The Old Apartment - Barenaked Ladies
Good Riddance - Green Day
Push - matchbox 20
Super Bon Bon - Soul Coughing
Monkey Wrench - Foo Fighters
The Freshman - Verve Pipe
Fire, Water, Burn - Bloodhound Gang
Rascal King - Mighty Mighty Bosstones
The Good Life - Weezer
Superman's Dead - Our Lady Peace
Everlong -Foo Fighters
Karma Police - Radiohead
The Fun Lovin' Criminal - The Fun Lovin Criminals
Virtual Insanity - Jamiroqui
All Mixed Up - 311
Lakini's Juice - Live
Stepping Stones - G Love and Special Sauce
Beautiful People - Marilyn Manson
3 am - matchbox 20
King Nothing - Metallica
How's It Going To Be - Third Eye Blind
Walkin' On The Sun - Smash Mouth
Hell - Squirrel Nut Zippers
This Lonely Place - Goldfinger
Transistor -311
All I Want - The Offspring
Tied to the 90s - Travis
Daylight Fading - Counting Crows
My Town - Buck-O-Nine
Pink Triangle - Weezer
Greedy Fly - Bush
Hitchin' A Ride - Green Day
Gone Away - The Offspring
High - Jimmie's Chicken Shack
Sign Of The Times - Queensryche
Goodyear - The Refreshments
Electrolite - R.E.M.
Don't Go Away - Oasis
Tripping Billies - Dave Matthews Band
Female of the Species - Space
A Long December - Counting Crows
I Will Survive - Cake
Touch, Peel and Stand - Days of the New
Desperately Wanting - Better Than Ezra
Barely Breathing - Duncan Sheik
M.O.R. - Blur
Truly Madly Deeply - Savage Garden
Volcano Girls - Veruca Salt
Happy - Travis
Everyday is a Winding Road - Sheryl Crow
Lazy Eye - Goo Goo Dolls
#1 Crush - Garbage
The Memory Remains - Metallica
One Headlight - The Wallflowers
Your Woman - White Town
A Change - Sheryl Crow
Firestarter - Prodigy
Turn My Head - Live
The Difference - The Wallflowers
I Want You - Savage Garden
Precious Declaration - Collective Soul
Around the World - Daft Punk
To The Moon and Back - Savage Garden
Boys on the Docks - Dropkick Murphys
Sunny Came Home - Shawn Colvin
Shame on You - Indigo Girls
Sunday Morning - No Doubt
Midnight in Chelsea - Jon Bon Jovi
Criminal - Fiona Apple
Building a Mystery - Sarah McLachlan
D'You Know What I Mean - Oasis
2 Become 1 -The Spice Girls
Block Rockin' Beats - Chemical Brothers
I Do - Lisa Loeb
Where You Get Love - Matthew Sweet
Listen - Collective Soul
Bitch - Meredith Brooks
All I Want To Do Is Rock - Travis
Barbie Girl - Aqua
It's No Good - Depeche Mode
Wannabe - Spice Girls
All For You - Sister Hazel
Electric Barbarella - Duran Duran
Right Through You - Alanis Morissette
Drop Dead Gorgeous - Republica
The Perfect Drug - Nine Inch Nails
Naked Eye - Luscious Jackson
Discotheque - U2

What I Didn't Know - Athenaeum
Slide - Goo Goo Dolls
Shimmer - Fuel
Inside Out - Eve 6
Father of Mine - Everclear
What's This Life For - Creed
Got You Where I Want You - the Flys
Clumsy - Our Lady Peace
Iris - Goo Goo Dolls
You Get What You Give - New Radicals
Dammit - Blink 182
The Way - Fastball
The Down Town - Days of the New
One Week - Barenaked Ladies
High - Feeder
I-76 - G Love and Special Sauce
Space Lord - Monster Magnet
No Shelter -Rage Against the Machine
Du Hast - Rammstein
Dragula - Rob Zombie
Closing Time - Semisonic
I Will Buy You a New Life - Everclear
U & Me & Bottle Make 3 - Big Bad Voodoo Daddy
The Set-Up (U Need This) - Reel Big Fish
Pretty Fly For A White Guy - the Offspring
Circles - Soul Coughing
Brick - Ben Folds Five
Never There - Cake
Unforgiven II - Metallica
What It's Like - Everlast
Jumper - Third Eye Blind
Celebrity Skin - Hole
Real World - Matchbox 20
Zoot Suit Riot - Cherry Poppin' Daddies
Save Tonight - Eagle-Eye Cherry
Save Yourself - Stabbing Westward
Bloodclot - Rancid
Cut You In - Jerry Cantrell
It's You - the Specials
Bittersweet Symphony - the Verve
Jump Right In - The Urge
Bittersweet - Fuel
Over Your Shoulder - 7 Mary 3
All the Kids Are Right - Local H
Back 2 Good - Matchbox 20
Superhero - Garrison Starr
Stay - Dave Matthews Band
I Think I'm Paranoid - Garbage
My Favorite Mistake - Sheryl Crow
Torn - Creed
4am - Our Lady Peace
My Friend - dc talk
Crush - Dave Matthews Band
She Has A Girlfriend Now - Reel Big Fish
Ray of Light - Madonna
Flagpole Sitta - Harvey Danger
My Own Prison - Creed
Happy - Sister Hazel
Lullaby - Shawn Mullins
Josie - Blink 182
Fire Escape - Fastball
Redundant - Green Day
Im OK Youre OK - MxPx
Everythings For Free - K's Choice
Be Quiet and Drive - the deftones
My Song - Jerry Cantrell
Time Ago - Black Lab
Losing a Whole Year - Third Eye Blind
Don't Drink the Water - Dave Matthews Band
Jolene - Spring Heeled Jack
Mr. Pinstripe Suit - Big Bad Voodoo Daddy
Fuel - Metallica
Jump Jive and Wail - Brian Setzer Orchestra
Push It - garbage
Smack My Bitch Up - Prodigy
Flat Tire - Athenaeum
Dropping Anchor - Jimmie's Chicken Shack
Soldiers Daughter - Tonic
Beetlebum - Blur
Sex and Candy - Marcy Playground
Rattlesnake - Live
Brimful of Asha - Cornershop
Torn - Natalie Imbruglia
Leech - Eve 6
Turn the Page - Metallica
Shades of Truth - Bad Religion
Faith - Limp Bizkit
Get Em Outta Here - Sprung Monkey
Royal Oil - Mighty Mighty Bosstones
My Hero - Foo Fighters
One More Murder - Better than Ezra
Dope Show - Marilyn Manson
Special - Garbage
Polyester Bride - Liz Phair
Shelf in the Room - Days of the New
Got The Life - Korn
Daysleeper - R.E.M.
Intergalactic - Beastie Boys
It's All Been Done - Barenaked Ladies
Heroes - The Wallflowers
Pizza - Bugsy
Hands - Jewel
It's Up to You - the Tuesdays
I'll Be - Edwin McCain
Once in a While - Dishwalla
Get Back - Zebrahead
Powertrip - Monster Magnet
Power of Goodbye - Madonna
Song for the Dumped - Ben Folds Five
Mailbu - Hole
Hush - Kula Shaker
Every Morning - Sugar Ray
Wish List - Pearl Jam
Lucky Man - Verve
DND - Semisonic
Are You Jimmy Ray? - Jimmy Ray
Sugar Cane - Space Monkeys
Still Rainin - Johnny Lang
Thank U - Alanis Morrisette
Frozen - Madonna
Blue on Black - Kenny Wayne Shepherd
Truly Truly - Grant Lee Buffalo
Monster Side - Addict
St Joe on the Schoolbus - Marcy Playground
The Cup of Life - Ricky Martin
Back on Earth - Ozzy Osbourne
Singing in My Sleep - Semisonic
Wrong Place, Right Then - Mighty Mighty Bosstones
Walking After You - Foo Fighters
Please - Chris Isaak
Pyscho Circus - KISS
Sometimes It Hurts - Stabbing Westward
Amazed - the Offspring
Good Riddance - Green Day
Everlong- Foo Fighters
Mouth - Bush
You're Still the One - Shania Twain
Lets Forget About It - Lisa Loeb
From Your Mouth - God Lives Underwater
Perfect - Smashing Pumpkins
One - Creed
I Don�t Want to Miss a Thing - Aerosmith
Amnesia - Chumbawamba
Raining on the Sky - Naked
Better Than you - Metallica
Ava Adore - Smashing Pumpkins
She Found You - Samiam
Adia - Sarah McLaughlin
Sour - Limp Bizkit
I Will Still be Laughing - Soul Asylum
Together Again - Janet Jackson
Don't be Stupid - Shania Twain
Wishing I was There - Natalie Imbruglia
Given to Fly - Pearl Jam

I am going to be so busy this afternoon so much for cleaning my house today.

Monday, March 29, 2010

Nap time

Here latly it has been a incressing struggle to get Shelby to take a nap. Last week she feel asleep on the floor in the living room. Today it was the same. She fought me for 2 hours to even just lay down. Jon has been home most of the day. All Jon had to do was come in to the house and say "you need to take a nap baby girl" with in 5 min. She was out. How much crap is that? I would like to know when the proper age is to let her not take anymore naps.

Saturday, March 27, 2010


Erin and I met when we were in child devolpment class in 2000. Wow has it really been 10 years. Erin and I hit is off instantly. We have had our ups and downs. As does every friendship. Erin has been there for me when I really needed her. I hope I have been there for her as much as she has for me. Erin has 2 beautiful children. I was appart of both of there births it was amazing and I will be forever greatful to her for alowing me to be appart of that. Erin is also a great phatografer. (yeah its spelled worng but whatever you get my drift) Erin is also my web designer. I have computer issues I call her. She just redesigned this blog. I love it!!! I think this is my way of telling Erin (who I believe is the only one who even reads this blog) THANK YOU! As much as this sucks to write I cant wait to see what the next Gulp 10 years are going to bring. I love you Erin.


Here is a link to Erin's website

Friday, March 26, 2010


4/12/10 Henyarita died last night were not sure why. Shelby is very saddened by this. I think life will go on it might be hard for a while but we will be fine.

We have this Chicken her name is Henyarita. We got her and 53 other last May. Henyarita is the only servior. 50 of the others were butcher chickens. The other 3 were layers. 2 of the layers were eatin by our dog. 1 of the layers we think was eatin by a mink. So that left Henyarita, who has become a chicken/dog. What I mean by that is well let me just show you some pictures. This is Shelby hold one of the chicks in May this is how she started.

This is Henyarita now.

And this

and this

and well this she followes Shelby everywhere and anwsers to her name Chick/dog.

Thursday, March 25, 2010


Ok I am looking for good blogs to read and keep up with. I have a few on my list now. They are

In no order. I am looking for somemore mommy blogs I have been on the CNN website and serched the best mommy blogs of 2009 but the only one that applealed to me I already read that that was www.thepioneerwoman.com . So if anyone who happens to come across this has a good blog for me to read I would really be happy!

WOW two post in one day holy crap I must be on a roll.

Rain :(

Rain. Somedays I like the rain. Somedays I hate the rain. Today is a hate the rain day. I am sick of this rain crap it is depressing! I am ready for warm summer days with no rain and tractors in the field. I might not be able to be the one in the tractor but I can at least watch the tractors go up and down the road. Or back and forth through the field in fron or behind the house. I am starting to get the hang of this sit do nothing thing. At least not be so depressed about it. Watching Farm boy in the field from the house I can still call him on the radio and tell him that he is doing it wrong. He never should have put a base station in the house and a radio in my truck. Don't get me wrong I love that instead of wasting 20 seconds digging out his phone then another 3 min calling mine becasue I have lost it again. He can now just hollar on the radio I am done in this field moving to this one. Or I am going to town you need anything? On my end I can now watch him work and depending on my mood I can get on the radio and hollar at him that he is doing it wrong. Or Food is ready. Oh wait we were talking about rain not my new radios. Back to Rain. It sucks. In the summer its not so bad becasue a nice shower when it is real hot out can be cooling. But right now its just plain cold. The wind is blowing hard and the ground is really saturated. So in conclusoin NO MORE RAIN!!!! I think I ended on the same subject I started?

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Hey Hoosier!!!

This phrase is one of the most used phrases in our house. Usually this phrase is called out by Farm boy or myself. If Farm Boy is the one saying it then either Shelby or myself are the recpient. Yes I myself need to be told every once in a while. I guess I should tell you what Hey Hoosier means.

Hey Hoosier: Your butt is hanging out pull up your pants!

Shelby cannot help being told Hey Hoosier! She has no butt so her pants just fall off. I have yet to find Jeans that will stay up on her that don't require modifaction.

I on the other hand just have gained a few extra pounds so mine just dont fit right I know it is no excuse but what can I say I love food.

So if you are ever around here and hear Hey Hoosier you might want to check to make sure it is not geared toward you :)

Tuesday, March 23, 2010


Is a salid still concidered healthy when you add Cheese, ham, crutons, and lots lots of ranch dressing? I am trying to eat a little more healthy. So I decided having salid. Well when I make a salid I have to have cheese meat crutons and lots and lots of dressing. Farm boy says I am defeting the prupose I need to stick to the veggies and a some of those salid spritzer things. But then I wouldn't be able to eat it. So I am eating my salid the way I want to because I am the only one in this house that will eat the Rabit food.

Monday, March 22, 2010


I have written 3 post in the last 30 minets. I deleated all of them. I cant decided what I want to write. I started one on Joey. I started one on my Mother. I started one on why I am turning 24 again and not 25. Which leaves me to this one. Am I going to deleat it not sure. I wrote the last three and decided they were all stupid and I couldnt post that. Knowing that no one reads this. I still couldnt post it. I have a lot to say but I am not usre that I can type it clearly enough for anyone that happens to stumble on to this can undersatnd it.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

My Poppy

In 11 hours and some minets my Poppy (grandfather) will have been in heaven for 9 months. I am writing about this now because I think I have healed enough to do so. Or maybe I need to write this so that I can heal more. Poppy's death was unexpectant then again it was not. He had been sick for sometime. I know I need to start with some background but the background in my family is very very confusing to me. 1 minute you have a happy slightly disfunctional family with Uncles Aunts cousins grandparets, then the next you are to speak to none of them! When you do start speaking to them you are no longer part of "there" family but a outsider wanting in. Poppy never made me feel like that he was the only one that I could go see and still feel the same love the unconditonial love that I had felt before. The day that I herd Poppy was sick I went to him I only left when the rest of the family did weather I was welcome there or not I was not leaving without a fight. Poppy made it threw that frist night and the next day a 9am I was the first one in his room sitting by his bed. talking to him telling him how much I loved him and he knew who I was look dead at me and said hun I dont want to eat yet. I told him that he didnt have to eat if he didnt want to that was fine. I told him I loved him while he was awake and he said I love you to breeann. those were the last words he spoke to anyone. Grandma came in and I held her hand (that is the closest grandma and I have been in 10 years for family issuse reassonsee hey I said disfuncial.) I stayed there all day at 3 in the after noon he took a bad turn and I called everyone and said get up here. a few hours later everyone was there but my dad. I was in bad enough shape as it was I needed my dad there He needed to be there for him. I moved a mountian that night dad showed up he was there. he was with the whole family when grandpa passed the way it should have been. I read something i wote for grandpa at the funral.

For my Grandpa

I know we are all feeling a little bit sad,
That we've lost our Grandpa, our friend and our dad
Together we have cried an ocean of tears
As we feel so empty and hold many fears

But Grandpa would want us to know he's in a good place
And that he watching us all with a smile on his face
As we have made him so proud, as proud as can be
That he has raised such a beautiful and special family

Thinking back now I really must say
I feel lucky and privileged to have known Grandpa to this day
For in my life, you have played a special part
The memories I will treasure and keep close to your heart

For me I am glad my little baby he got to meet
And for all of us, be grateful, his life is now complete
To each one of us he has loved and cared
And a family, be thankful for the good times we shared

Although he has gone we will always be together
And his spirit will live on each one of us forever
When you look to the sky, look for the brightest star
As that will be Grandpa looking down on us from afar

And now I would like to thank the good Lord above
For blessing us with our Grandpa with his kindness and love
Dear God, if it is not too much fuss
Take extra special care of our Grandpa as he is very dear to us

Grandpa if you are listening say a prayer for us every day
Be sure to protect us and guide us on our way
We know when God called you, you had to go
But we want you to know Grandpa we miss you and love you so

I miss my poppy and am having a ruff time with him being gone. I dont tell people this because its not who I am I am tuff. I am not a cryer I am not one to let things get in my way I am one to let things go but I cant help but cry myself to sleep a few night a week thinking about him and what he and uncle J and uncle B and little granda ma and papa Jack are doing I know he is fishing and WALKING with no cane and I cant wait to walk with him and he can match me step for step or go fishing and actually catch something not just lies. I miss you poppy. (still not feeling better it was worth a shot though)

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Weather Reports

I think I am going to start doing Weather reports for the recliner. Sounds like a good plan to me. I have a great view of the front yard form the picture window and the chair. So why not start.
March 4Th 2010
Sunny a few clouds
No rain (right now)
nothing is flying past the window so I am going to say no wind either
It looks warm outside (looks can be deceiving)
Please take in the fact that I am in south central Illinois so everything could change in a Minute.

That is my weather report as of now like I said it could change.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

My farm Boy

I met my farm boy when I was working at a John Deere dealer (gasp I know I know anyone that knows me knows that the green stuff is against my reglion). I am a Case IH girl through and through. It took my Farm Boy 6 months to get me to go on a date with him. Not that I didn't want to just that I wasn't sure of what I wanted at that point in time. When I finialy did say yes to that date, we went to Knotty Pine in Breese, it was nice and cozy. From there we went to Dutchmans and Pats. He took me back to my truck and I went home. The next night my Farm Boy ask me to come to his shop. So I did we talked and he noticed that my oil change in my truck was about 10,000 over due and that annoyed him to no end. So when I said oh I will get it changed tomorrow he told me that no were going to do it tonight and together. So off to walmart we went. We went out to eat at Pizza Hut and came back and changed my oil together. We have worked together ever scence. He has told me on more than one ocasion that he likes the fact that I will work beside him not behind him. He knows that I have grown up farming and loves that. He loves that he can call me from work and tell me to hook a a piece of equipment up to a tractor and go to work all without him having to watch and make sure I am doing it right. (before I broke my back now I just sit and do nothing) He knows that I am not affraid to ask him any questions becasue if he thinks I already know the answer he will tell me to think about the question and then answer it my self. If I still cant then he will explain it to me in my speak. I think and speak simple! I love my Farm boy. The day that Shelby first me him we were working at the John Deere dealer together and my dad had her she couldn't go to daycare because she was sick. Well Papa needed parts so he brought her in covered in choclate, dirt and some sticky supstance he put her up on the parts counter and ordered his parts. I took every baby wipe I had sent with him and tried to clean her up. In the process Farm boy cam up from the back and needed something. It was love at first site Shelby jumped off the counter and went to the back and wached Farm boy walk in to the shop. She cam back up front and waited the second she herd the door form the shop open she ran and jumped in to farm boys arms. He held her tight and carried her everywhere. I could see form that moment that this guy was the right one for us. He loved us both. Today Farm Boy is working construction telling me that I need to keep my head up that things will work out and my back will get better Shelby is just as much in love with him as the day she met him. She greats him everynight with a hug and kiss and I messed you. He kisses us goodbye everymorning with a I love you and be good for both of us. My farm boy never yells at me or Shelby just gives us a stern look every now and a again when we need it. I love my Farm boy and cant imagain a day with out him.